Receive

Throughout my life, I have played with the art of manifestation. Enough to prove to myself that it really does work. Universal laws really are there to serve us and I think it’s fantastic! The last couple weeks have been so good for me. The universe has been schooling me a lot. A new lesson has been assigned: “Learn to receive, Gabrielle.”

You can see in my last post I got to share about how I understand what I get to have and get to let go of. And since that post, I have been thrown into a loop of experiences to see just how much I really am willing to receive. It has been an exciting challenge.

In the mornings I have been doing a meditation and affirmation practice. My main focus has been removing blocks and opening the solar-plexus chakra. after my meditation, I decided to go into my backyard to eat breakfast and enjoy the sunshine. I was feeling so great. I had this meditation music playing on a blue-tooth speaker and decided it would be a good time to play with manifesting something I would like to experience.

So I made it simple. I set my intention and asked to see one butterfly, dragonfly, and bird..but with yellow on them. I picked yellow because of its association to solar-plexus.

Within 10 minutes a giant yellow butterfly passes next to me. I felt so giddy with excitement. But then came this guilt, followed by a string of thoughts such as ” I should just be grateful for this one butterfly and go inside. I could make myself more useful in the house. Why did I ask for so much and so specific? Who in the hell do I think I am?”I chose to change these thoughts and realize it was tied to an “upper limits” problem and got re-centered. I promised myself I would be open to receiving what I asked for.

I hear a humming noise coming from the side of my yard and see a giant yellow dragonfly coming just at the perfect time. At this point, I start laughing like a little kid. Out of nowhere follow TWO more YELLOW dragonflies! I swear under my breath as I think what are the odds? My little boy comes out to the yard and says he wants to bring mommy a flower. Guess what color it was? I am overwhelmed with joy and gratitude and as I smell the little flower another large yellow butterfly comes fluttering past us.

At this point, I am feeling very satisfied. I wasn’t exactly sure how a yellow bird would come and I decided that it would be okay if it didn’t right then and there. Maybe it would come in another time and form during the day. I stand up to go into my house and I hear a chirping sound. I look over to the rock wall in our yard and see a yellow-bellied bird looking at me. I gasped at this point. I thank the little bird for its visit and it turns its head to the sky and takes flight…

Think this story is over? Oh no my friend its gets even better. Above my head are 14 yellow-bellied birds playing in the sky above my house. My eyes fill with tears of joy. Seriously? This is my life? This is what I get to attract? I thanked God and the universe and went back into the house to reflect on what I had just learned.

Here is how I get to receive the things I desire. I get really clear inside on my intention and what I want to co-create with the Universe/God. I say my intentions out loud. I open the invitation and commit to receive. I re-center if I lose my focus (I get to release any attachments that are distracting from my openness to receive.) I get to receive more than what I asked for because it always shows up that way. The universe supports me and it showers me with abundance. And last but not least I get to fully enjoy and embrace what I ask to receive.

 

I really want to make a video going into depth on this. I dont want to make my blog posts too long so I skip a lot of points I would like to make. Maybe some of you would be interested in seeing videos.

Thanks for reading!

-Gabrielle

My Cardinal Sin

I have always considered what other people want and need from me. I used to believe that in order for me to get what I want, I had to give a part of myself away first. I had to do something for you first to be on the receiving end in any relationship. This was my cardinal rule in life.

Can you imagine how exhausting being like that is? To put yourself through an emotional and mental obstacle course to get anything in life. The straight up mind fuck of it all?

It took 24 years to come to the realization that this belief is not serving me at all! This way of being was so deeply a part of my identity that I was blindsided by it. And I thought it was the best part of my personality… *cough* Seriously, Gab? Reality check please! I played the martyr card hard with this one guys..  and even though I get to have new perspective and see how yucky that was I don’t regret it.. I had to go through that shit to see that it wasn’t working for me.

Here is what I now know I get to release:

  • fatigue and exhaustion
  • blame
  • anxiety
  • depression
  • fear
  • insecurity
  • excess weight in any form

 

Here is what I get to receive:

  • Confidence
  • Personal power
  • Higher levels of energy
  • Joy
  • Happiness
  • Faith
  • Trust
  • Honor
  • Integrity

 

Obviously, those are short lists of how truly powerful this change gets to impact my life. It feels so good. Like stepping into the sun.  I want to be able to share my experience with people, so that if just one person who has suffered similar to me can heal, they get the invitation.

I understand that there is a very healthy flip side to considering the needs and wants of others. It means that I am sensitive to get in tune where people need to be served. And I am so grateful to be able to tune in that way. I know I am a healer. But the way we go about doing things is very important. When you show up for yourself you get to show up for others in a very powerful way. Everyone gets to be honored.

 

If you have some yummy action steps that you take to show up for yourself please share them with me!

Love & Light -Gabrielle

 

 

 

 

 

Stepping into the sun

 

Ladies and gentlemen! I have officially tapped into my power! More specifically – solar plexus, belly loving power!! My energy levels have increased and I feel this wonderful burning fire in my belly. I know that my being is going through an integration process that I have been trying to access my. entire. life! And I am being in joy and loving every moment.

I had a wonderful family member of mine walk me through a grounding meditation and access a belief that I have been carrying since I was literally in the womb. That feeling and belief was that my existence was a burden to others. And I believed that in order to counterbalance that I had to spend my who life trying to take on the burdens of others!! This person was able to help me see the cost of holding onto this belief. How much I have suffered at my own hand.

Now I get to choose into a new belief and way of being. I get to own my power and how I show up. My existence does not take away from anyone else like I had thought. My being and contributions are of great value. I get to manifest the things I desire and enjoy them. I get to be safe and happy no matter what. I get to love me. And that is how I get to tap into serving others!

I can now look at my past that once confused me and have great clarity. How beautiful is it that life sends you all these experiences that are really little red flags to show you where you can show up for yourself and heal? How perfect life has shown up for me. This last year has been full of little signs everyday that I was going to be stepping into this new light in life. And I am fucking loving every moment. My body feels like it is re-booting. The world feels like a safer place. I get to be happy. I am so grateful. I know I am taking another step into my purpose. I feel it.

I am sure I will make a video or another post going deeper into this. For now I will keep it short because I committed myself to get it out there in some form.

Love and light to you all!

-Gabrielle